Weekend Ready!! Are you?

Happy Friday out there!! I am excited for the weekend. This week has been dragging or maybe my ass has been dragging. I am upright and moving forward, I suppose that is a victory.

Happy Friday

My weekend plans involved getting in some exercise and building on the energy I am seeking. I have come home, made dinner, and vegged out every night this week. That isn’t cool when you have goals. I haven’t been feeling the best and my energy has just crapped out.

I have been staying on track for the most part. Yesterday I had a slice of cake which I should have walked away from, but I called it 10 PointsPlus and moved on with my life. I have stuck to my points but I could have made this week a better week by the choices and better decisions.

I am doing well when it comes to my points but I think one of next weeks’ goals will be to add more fresh foods to my diet and less processed foods. I know I can do better when it comes to food. I have goals and one of those is better quality food. Back in my college days I had to eat whatever crap I could afford but life has allowed me to step up my game, I just haven’t chosen to do it.  You got this GIRRRL!!!

My highest weight was 310 pounds…. Embarrassing but a fact. Remember we keep it honest and real around here. Right now I am sitting at 288. I am proud of that number, and I know it will only get better.

I am not allowing the struggle bus in because “NO” is not in my vocabulary. My mom always said that as a toddler there wasn’t any word I hated more than the word NO. Nothing has changed.  I can have what I want, when I want it, it’s all about choices and balance. I am happy right now! I am happy where I am at on the last day of January in a brand new decade.

My goals for next week are

  • 100+ ounces of water each day
  • Maintaining my daily points without going over
  • 30 minutes of exercise for 5 days

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Yes, broken but only for a little while….

Something to think about….

I started this site to write down my feelings, hopes, struggles and successes. I don’t know if it will help anyone else but surely it will help me. I have been failing at weight loss for most of my life. I have an eating disorder that most people and my family would laugh at because they would say I am “just fine the way I am.” It’s funny how the people you love and love you back have rose colored glasses on when it comes to you. I guess that is love…

In reality I am a binge eater. For the most part I am not afraid to talk about it. I am certainly not proud of it, but I know it is a little part of who I am but it’s not all of who I am…. I am so many things, but most people don’t know much about me. I pretty much keep to myself and do my own thing. It’s funny because I assume, they “those people” assume a lot about me. Little do they know that I ate an entire box of Girl Scout cookies on my own yesterday and totally spiraled out of control! Nope they didn’t know that… Embarrassing but I did it…

I have been told I look like the preppy girl next door that has never lived much…. But that’s not really the case…

People think I listen to country music because I am from Texas and because I look like someone who would. In truth my favorite band is Metallica, but I like some country too…

Most people assume I am smart because I am college education with a Bachelor’s of Science and a MBA. What they don’t know is that I was diagnosed with a learning disorder when I was in elementary school and nothing has ever come easy to me. Nothing was handed to me (you would know that by my student loan debit). I have had to earn everything by working for it.

Most people think I am a mother with a lot of kids when in fact I have never been able to carry a baby to term.

People see that I live in a big house and assume my life has always been privileged when in fact I grew up in a family with just enough to get by. So yes, I know how the other half live and always will because I was the other half.

I have little dreams that I keep to myself, because they are personal dreams not big dreams like being president. Little dreams like riding a roller coaster again. I feel too fat to do it now. How about riding in an airplane? Yes that would be amazing… it’s been a long time. As silly as it might sound I would love to take a kick boxing class but I wouldn’t been comfortable until I was a little thinner and felt more confident. 9 Round just opened by my house… someday.

I am currently trying to improve my self-esteem by trying Weight Watchers or WW for the 1000th time or pretty close to that number…  One day at a time right?

The last 3 days of WW have been and epic fail for me. I just been on a binge eating cycle that I can’t seem to jump on. It’s 10am on Tuesday and I haven’t binged or even had the desire so maybe I am back on track? Maybe… I am faithful.

Stay tuned for more fun filled adventures of losing, gaining and everything in between. BTW Hi it’s nice to meet you. I am Kody!!